Sunday, October 17, 2004 09:12 p.m.
Feeling : Bad mood, or sad ? I dun know...
Dun ask me why I'm in a bad mood or sad today. I don't know myself. Its like today, I've started to question myself alot especially when many things have happen. I'm sad at it. I wanna be cheerful and just forget them. You guys know that I'm a deep-thinker when I'm in thoughts, so I tend to think and think on further until its really scary. I really hate myself for being such a pathetic person in reality. I hate myself more and more. Why am I so useless. A useless fool in life. I cant do anything well. I'm just a piece of unpolished diamond, I woulda say and never ever will I be polished, so my heart tells me so.
So, you can see that I'm very pessimistic in life, but some times, I can be optimistic. I hate myself more. Its like many things have happened and I pretend not to know them. I don't want the painful truth. I want to be in my dreamland, but there's no way I can be ever there. I'll always be alone, in this shell, all alone by myself. I had even a protecting shield to protect myself from others. I only cared about myself since young. I've hated people who had despised me. I hate them throughly!
When I've learned to love people properly, people around me, abused me, used me. This make me hate life more. Wanting to use that shield to protect myself even further inorder not to get hurt anymore. I don't wanna get hurt. I know its impossible, but I try not to have the slightest pain of all. I don't want. I'm suffering now. I'm sad, but no one could see my sadness as it's being covered by my mask. I wanna be that happy girl again, but I know, I can never be happy again, after you all said such painful stuff to me. There is no longer the 'PH' you all know. That 'PH' shall remain no where in this world, as she has gone to another place. She has too much suffering. Now the current 'PH' will no longer be that 'PH' you all know.........
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Saturday, October 16, 2004 12:12 a.m.
Feeling : Tired.
Finally, again, got to blog. Haha, Kinda lazy to blog once exams are over. I'm quite happy since exams end. Its really kinda cool, I guess. Haha, Nah. Gonna find a job to pay all my stuff manx. I'm really broke today after buying some mags on GSeed Destiny.
Got a craze on GSeed Destiny manx. I'm so mad about Kira and Lacus. Hehe. So mad about them manx.
Today, kinda happy and sad. The happy thing is that I bought mags on GSeed Destiny. Was really happy when I reached Kino. Was practically a mad fangirl when I was there. I was exclaiming, "OMG! OMG!" Haha. Kept walking around Kino, waiting for JJ. Haha. After that walked all the way to Atrium. Waited for Eva until super long, that I was so freaking pissed off at him. I was practically angry at him for being super late. Reason, *sigh* , I dun wanna say.
After waiting until 5.15, went down to Chinatown with JJ to buy the sewing machine with Daryl. Finally bought it. Kinda easy to use, I guess. Bought many things to eat on the way to buy the sewing machine because I was mad and angry. Bought ice-cream, meat bun (Niku-man!!) and Pandan Cake. *Sigh* Then while buying the sewing machine, Eva called to say he reached XSquare. Finally, then we took our time and slowly walked to XSquare.
Decided to go for dinner first and then Aho came. I was kinda worried for him, coz he is so sick nya. I'm a little worried. He got a bad sore throat. Hope he is getting a rest now. After that went back to XSquare to play FF. Haha, I was practically laughing non-stop. Finally found a way to curb my fear. My laughter!! xDxD. Laugh non-stop until Daryl took this scary pic, that I screamed super loud. xDxD. Played all the way until 10p.m. Kinda late. Haha, then after that chion back home.
The sad thing, is about Daniel. Kinda worried about him especially his health. Really hope he will get well nya....
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Sunday, October 10, 2004 10:00 a.m.
Feeling : Tired
Watching : Hunter X Hunter
Yesterday's photoshoot was okie, but I really wanna apologize to many people who were there at the photoshoot. I'm really sorry for bringing you guys to such a place..... I'm really sorry.....*sigh* Really sorry about it!! I also made a bad Cagalli that day... A bad and fat Cagalli, I would say. *sigh*
PH depress liaoz......
Newayx, after the photoshoot yesterday, we went straight to BK to have our dinner. xDxD Its the 3rd time straight in a row manx. Had Mushroom Swiss double Meal. After that, went to XZone to play. Saw Rinka, Bridget, Ziru, Zephy and Tomoyo playing Para Para. Never joined them, coz I'm lazy to para that day, so went to see JJ, Daryl and Aho play SC2. Quite fun nya. After playing that, we went to XSquare to play Kungfu Chaos. Its a nice game, but I kept losing. xDxD Around 7.30, we changed the game. We started playing Fatal Frame. I was really scared that I hugged Aho's bag non-stop. Haha, I'm really scared of such things. I really scream out loud for once. Haha.
After that, we went to send Cherry off and then went back arcade to play for a while, then head back home. It was fun nya. But still, wanna apologize for everything. I will try my best to make another good photoshoot, I promise!!!
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Thursday, October 7, 2004 08:45 a.m.
Feeling : Happy , I guess.
Finally, my last day of exam. I'm so glad that today is the last day. Finaly, I've waited for this day a long time~~~Haha. Yesterday, cant seem to study att all, but managaed to get hold of Continous Probability Distribution. Muz thank Pey Fen manx~~ She last minute type out the working for me to see~~~ Thanks Pey Fen~~ xDxD
Oh ya, many good things have happened yesterday~~ xDxD One of them, is that our group has one more person in it. Jo's joining in as Tomoyo~~ xDxD So happy desu~~ I got a Tomoyo~~ xDxD
Newayx, now trying to get all my last minute studying manx. xDxD Shld be able to get a A, I guess. xDxD
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Wednesday, October 6, 2004 07:20 a.m.
Listening to : Honey from CCS 2nd Ending
Yesterday, had tried to complete my CSA revision. Well, I managed to revise all until like 1.30a.m. I was like so tired that I can KO'ed anytime. Moreover, I had set a timer at ard 5.30a.m. to 6a.m., but I dunno why I off the alarm and go back to sleep again. Luckily, my 2nd alarm(HP) called me up. But still, went back to sleep. And then slept all the way until now. I'm kinda tired.....After exam, gonna go back sleep for like 2 hrs and then start on FS Revision. Parnella is up too. Saw her online now. I guess everyone's gonna pia on their CSA manx. Haha. Better go start revising now. Its the final lap liaoz~~ xDxD
Yesterday, had a funny chat with him on the phone and online. Its nice nya~~ So happy. Newayx, I blog until here. Gonna start studying liaoz ^_^
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Sunday, October 3, 2004 12:53 a.m.
Listening : My Fan...
Okie, just now, I felt so idoitic of myself. Well, the reason is simple, I forget to on the cable after playing PS/2....I was like," Hmm, aiyoh, why cant the net work. Shit..." Then after, I left my com to go and eat a big feast at home. It was sumptous manx. Had crabbies for the day~~~Wheeeee. I love them, but I cant eat too much. *sigh* Got allergies to seafood.... *sigh* Sad manx.
Then after dinner, went down to Clementi Central. Bought TRC bk 7 and DN book 2. Muz thank my mum for letting me spend her money~~~ xDxD Then I finally bought SIMS 2!!! OMG!!! Its so fun!~~~ xDxD Gonna play tmr, if I can wake up to play. xDxD Okie, really tired manx.... Didn;t do any work....Tmr, gonna go for study session at Burger King... xDxD
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Friday, October 1, 2004 10:39 a.m.
Sianz Sianz Sianz.....I'm really bored.....Hm...woke up kind late and decided not to go for class since its kinda meaningless for me to go coz I've got no questions for the teacher....Well, juz edited my PSP assignment....I think I might go bonkers anytime.....Can't get the formula working..ARGH...I've only got like to Sunday to submit the whole thing....Sheesh....*sigh* So sianz... Now rotting at home.... Have to wait till 3 or rather 2 plus, then I shall go school and take the PSP walkthrough. Thanx God that it is a walkthrough....I can bring my book in~~~ Muz really study hard for CSA manx....I'm damn scared of CSA.... coz CSA sux ?? I dunno...Just dun like the module...It practicallys bores me out.....*sigh* Better start on my costume soon.....I dun have much time... There are like so many things to do and yet so little time... I'm going bonkers!!!Someone , pls harakiri me manx.... xDxD Juz Joking...... Still have yet to study my CSA... Juz know abit here and there......FS, er...still okie lah ?? I guess..... *sigh* Boring EXAMS!!! xDxD I still prefer secondary School exams....they're always so simple~~ and I love them~~ knowing that I surely get high marks~~ xDxD . Okie, I'd better go study a little b4 I go sch manx... xDxD
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Wednesday, September 29, 2004 11:52 p.m.
Listening to : Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien Op
Finally, I'm done ^_^ I'm so glad that I've finished my webby today ^_^ Spend like 1 whole day to update my cosplay web from scratch. Its a good accomplishment to me. ^_^ Ureshii~~~ ^_^
Yesterday, went to pluck my wisdom tooth..Shucks...the pain comes from the injection.... *sob* Newayx, its all over~~ So glad..... xDxD Now gonna start studying for my exams which are like erm...a few days away ?? xDxD This is so not like me....studying at such a late time.... *sigh*
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Tuesday, September 28, 2004 03:51 p.m.
FEELING : ANGRY!!!! SUPER ANGRY THAT I WANNA KILL A PERSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WONDER WHY AM I IN THIS FAMILY....I HAD ENOUGH OF IT.....I HATE EVERYONE!!!!!!I CANT STAND MY 2ND BROTHER....I HAD ENOUGH OF HIM!!!! HE'S A FUCKING ASSHOLE I TELL YOU!!! HE THINK HE'S DAMN GREAT THAT HE'S THE KING OF THE FAMILY.......I ALSO HATE MY MUM...I HATE EVERYONE....DAI KIRAI YO............I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I HATE THEM FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I WUN ACKNOWLEDGE HIM AS MY 2ND BROTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Monday, September 27, 2004 10:26 p.m.
My tooth is giving me more probs.....*sigh* One day gonna start sewing with my bare hands...I SWEAR manx!!! Okie, got kinda fustrated with my mum... *sigh* Dun even feel like talking abt it. Sometimes, I envy other ppl's mum. Reason is simple, from what I can see on the surface, their mum treat them well. *sigh* Okie, bash me if u guys want to if I got this wrong kae ? I'm in a bad mood coz of my tooth. But dun worry, I'll be okie in one night~~~Err...ya... *sigh* Need to change layout soon manx~~ I need a GSeed Layout asap~~~ Gonna make one soon after my PSP assignment is done and so are all my revision.... *sigh* Think it will take like a week or so ?? I dunno.....I wanna sing Madlax's Ending song for KHK next yr!!! I'm so in love with it.
Sometimes, I really can sew for god's sake manx. I'm really tootz in sewing. I always spend a bomb on costume. I dun wana do that. I wanna save money, Maybe gonna try making some simple costume with someone guiding me I guess. Gonna start making soon. Maybe CCS for a try ?? xDxD
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Monday, September 27, 2004 08:17 p.m.
Listening : Fish Leong
Today.....*sigh* bad day ?? I guess so, many ppl aint feeling happy, but I'm not one of them. Its my friends. err...I dun know why....Er....maybe I'm not observant bah. Well, usually I'm not very observant of stuff, so guys, dun blame me nya.... Gomenasai~~~
My gum near my wisdom tooth is giving me probs again....Dentist say its gum infection. *sob* *sob* Can cry manx...Well, watch Madlax eps 25. Nice manx!!!Wooohooo~~~Got motivation to sing the ending song manx!!I'm so in love with it.
Yesterday went out with JJ and Daryl. That aho, *sigh* nvm. Haha, bought alot of stuff manx. Bought my CCS Gasahpon. Manx...I felt so cheated when I got to know the price that someone is selling at 24 and I paid for 26....then I also ordered the 2nd CCS Gashapon...Oh manx... I can see that money is flying away frm my pocket or rather wallet again....I also got my GSeed stuff reserved...thats another like 65 bucks gone... Gonna go work for it. *sob* Still got 2 more costumes to pay manx.... or rather 3 costumes....*sigh* Can cry manx... Nvm, gonna work xtra hard during the holidays to pay off my debt....!!! Ganbatte!!!Now, trying to solve my PSP assignment, which is giving me headache espcially today.... *sigh* Well, not gonna type much, coz I'm a rather lazy person....... xDxD
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Friday, September 24, 2004 09:17 a.m.
Feeling : Way too tired....dying soon, so buy me one coffin. Thanks ^_^
This morning, had to force myself to wake up, coz I cant stop sleeping. Well, concerning yesterday's matter, I'm still kinda angry at her, but Aho, JJ and Daryl told me not to be angry. Well, its very true that its their mouth, so let them say as much as they want, but I really can't stand her for saying that. Well, the GSeed team have their own choice as I've said. Well, okie, I'm gonna let the matter rest since its like so long.......*sigh* Why am I so...... *sigh* I dunno.
Yesterday, had a good chat with him, but too bad I got tired out by Sailor Moon Musical. I've only watched finish Part 1. Think I won't be going out I guess. I'm too tired....Only got've like 4 hours of sleep ?? I'm really tired........Tired of this and that. Btw, I've decided to forego JLPT 4. I dun have the feeling to take anymore. *sigh*
Once the domain comes today, gonna chiong most of my websites, I think. So gonna, chiong the layout tonight and think how am I gonna do it. Well, okie, I think I'd better concentrate my CSA. *sigh* Can't fail.....
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Thursday, September 23, 2004 11:24 p.m.
Well, didn't thot I would blog again, but after seeing someone's blog....I'm kinda pissed off. Okie, this is what this person who wrote on her blog like ages ago ?? There was a Gundam SEED team, which had way too much makeup on. They did some dumb yaoi thing onstage - GROW UP ALREADY!
Okie, that was what the person said. Well, I can tell you that, this is just for fanservice, NOT any YAOI thing. If ya dun like YAOI, pls do not say it dumb!! Okie, pardon me. I'm really angry at her for saying that!! Well, its their own choice to put make-up, so dun say too much!!!
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Thursday, September 23, 2004 10:41 p.m.
Feeling : Sad ?
*sigh* Today, well, won't say its a good day or bad day I guess... Haha, Well, got to know that most of my classmates are kinda like atttached....*sigh* This makes me sad ?? I dunno...Kannan said something this afternoon on our way to the workshop room. He say that if a person who still dun have err....yea you know then you will be like errr....ya...Dun wanna spit it out. *sigh* This made me kinda sad... I dunno. It just felt kinda sad ?? or you mighta say like dun feel so easy or what. Yes, indeed I told Kannan, saying that I'm not prepared to go on to a relationship coz I'm too playful and I want my own freedom. I remembered telling that to Taku, TB and Sid. I really cant stand someone who is always there to control me. Well, sorry for saying this, but its what I feel. I feel so "enclosed" in a relationship, err....so ya. I kinda like freedom more, but when I have my freedom , I yearn for someone to care for me and vice versa. I dunno whats wrong with me. I really dunno. Newayx, I'll be still waiting for him. He's the only guy I think I've ever taken a long liking to. I think ?? Hm....okie, dun wanna spit too much on this topic. errr....Ya, so forget abt what I've said.
Next on, today, me and weiqi went down to the post office to send the money order . Can't wait to get the domain soon~~~WAIIII!!! xDxD
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Wednesday, September 22, 2004 11:17 p.m.
Feeling : Very awake ?
Today, is the 3rd time, I've blog today manx. Haha, blogged 3 times liaoz worr!!! So dun say me that I dun blog kae ?? xDxD Newayx, earlier on, I was on the phone with Weiqi. She finally found a domain~~~Wooohooo~~~ Meaning that we're gonna get a domain soon~~Yeay~~~ I'm like in heaven like that. xDxD So good to have my own domain. This time, I'm sharing with Weiqi coz its cheap and reliable [ Heard it frm Weiqi] xDxD . Then we agreed on it. Haha, gonna update lotsa stuff manx.....My cosplay web and my blog are gonna shift soon, so ppl, be prepared to change ur links soon kae ? xDxD Can't wait for the domain to come soon. Then I can have my own team webby~~~COOL ^_^
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Wednesday, September 22, 2004 01:32 p.m.
Feeling : Tired.
Now in CSA class, having to completed my presentation on RAM. It was kinda scary. *Phew* Luckily, its all done and over with. Well, before my class started, I completed one of the the scenarios of the game, Heroes of Might and Magic IV. It took me like 2 days to complete. Haha. Today's class is super slacky. No IMMF classes for the day. How good it is manx. I might be staying in school today, to do my proj. if not go home and zzzzz. Ha, you all can say that I'm a lazy pig. well, I AM!!! xDxD Okie, gonna make a thread on the group for EOY Team. So, ya, pls check it out ? Will be making a web on it. xDxD
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Wednesday, September 22, 2004 12:34 a.m.
Feeling : Tired of this and that!!
Now, trying to chiong my groups's report with Nel now. *sigh* I still got one more part to do~~~ We just knew it like 2 hours ago I guess. Haha. Well, I'm kinda troubled by lotsa stuff. Sometimes, I feel that the world is so unfair. Okie, let me get this right. One reason why I'm feeling jealous is that why could she get a present, but I can't. Its like my b'dae is so obvious and yet I don't get one, but rather for her, I had to chipped in coz my friends wanted too. Its like so unfair. okie, the world is already unfair, so I cant have it fair. Fine. Thats perpetually fine with me. Maybe just that I cant stand it.
Next, on with the costumes. I'm quite fed up with myself over costumes now. Its like I dun even know where my costumes are now. Its like when I wanna do a photoshoot on this and that, something is always missing. Maybe I shldn't lend out my costumes for a long time ? Well, I' missing my Songstress Rikku costume, Alice19th costume and Kanon costume. I wanna comb back my wig. I hope its still in good condition after that thingy... Dun wanna mention. Mentioning it will me boil more than ever. Forgive me for ranting here, but really, I'm more fed-up than ever. I've just got tonnes and tonnes of homework that are never-ending. Argh, I think I've dropped into a pit that I can never come out from. I will always have never-ending problems and work that will keep piling on my head, getting heavier each day. Shootz, I think I've stressed myself too much. And yes, its true. Though I may look so relaxed in front of you guys, its not true I tell you. I'm not so carefree or what. I've got my own problems to take care of. Okie, forgive me for ranting too much. I've yet to finish the report yet and my practicals for tomorrow. I've gotta reach early to school tomorrow and do the practicals. God Shit. I'm so tired that I wanna be like him, sleep all day all night. It must be wonderful to be him, but I think otherwise. Its not too sensible to sleep too much.
Okie, shall stop here, inorder to complete my report. Which is like maybe 2 to 3 mins of typing and it will be done for the day and I can get my beauty-sleep~~~.
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Thursday, September 16, 2004 08:23 a.m.
So tired manx!!! Can't believe that I've stayed up like until 1 plus to do my own webpage manx. There are soooo many things to update (e.g Costume Page) Well, by doing them , can kill me for like 2 nights ?? I've been KO'ed for 1 night liao.Okie, enuff about my site. I haven't been myself lately, in a sense that I'm not my usual self. Hm....assignments most of them not done. Muz find a way to do them asap nya...*sigh* Next week is the submission of work and projects.... *dies at the hands of CSA and IMMF* Gotta redo the layout for IMMF as there are some errors. Gonna do it by tonight and tmr night and submit in early sat morning, b4 going out to do props~~~ *sigh* It seems like I've gotten busier than ever. Better stop blogging now, if not I'll be real late for sch manx. FS is surely boring... *sigh* I wanna continue to do my webpage manx. Currently, got some prob need to ask my friends liaoz.... *sigh*
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Wednesday, September 15, 2004 02:21 p.m.
Now in CSA Pract class....erm...as usual, doing nothing, I guess. Always lazy to do my pract~~~ xDxD That Aho still haven't wake up manx....*shoot* Grrr....
Aniwae, guys, me going off now to play Crazy Taxi, using my friend's lap, coz I dun have it on my lap, so *sigh* Gonna redo my cosplay web and take more new pics~~~ Muz ask weiqi help me nya!!!!
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Monday, September 13, 2004 01:23 p.m.
Now in FS lecture~~~ BORING~~~ JUZ ONE WORD!!!! BORING.....I cant believe that this is killing me.....I hate the other class frm the FS Lectures. Their class sux manx.... Grrrr.....always snatch our class usual place. WTH!!! Freak.....Later gonna meet him, JJ and Qi at China Town.
Yesterday, called him. Haha, it was a great talk with him~~~ Got all my confidence back. I think he's a guy who you can really rely on~~~~Waiii~~~PH in madness mode liaoz!!!FUWAIIII!!!! ~><~ xDxD Okie, better not blog now........Low BATT!!!! xDxD
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Wednesday, September 8, 2004 10:30 p.m.
Listening to : Hoobastank - The Reason
Feeling : Empty.....
Ever since I came home today after meeting Alicia[Crimson], Daryl, JJ and his friend, I've got this sense of emptiness in my heart. I don't know what is that. Juz when I get online, no one was there and I felt empty especially in the heart. I dunno what I'm thinking. I'm really sadden by this. I felt so sad.........I think I need someone, but that someone, when is coming to save me from my emptiness and lonliness........Someone save me~~~~
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Monday, September 6, 2004 02:29 p.m.
Listening to : One In This World by Haylie Duff
Finally, monday classes are over manx~~ but still gotta wait for my Tennis attachement which is starting at 6 manx. Boring. *sigh* Can't believe I've got like 4 hours to slack in school. Well, my day didn't really started well, coz of my brother who was watching 100% Senorita early in the morning, which my was "alarm" Then after, went to sch in a very sloppy look. Went for programming classes and had a hard time on programming. *sigh* I'm not good in programming manx. After classes, had prata~~~Wheeee, I LOVE PRATAS!! xDxD Okie, pardon me manx.
Now, I dunno what I wanna do manx. Feel like going home to sleep, but I'm scared that if I go home now, I think I'll sleep until the next day, coz I'm really tired manx. Drinking my bubble tea, and slacking at the library's bubble tea shop with my classmates and Ch0. Sheesh. Today, I'll be home quite late and moreover, tomorrow's classes are starting early in the morning at 8. Gosh.I hope tomorrow's classes can be like pushed back until erm.....8.30 ?? Give me another 30 mins to sleep manx. xDxD Okie, shall stop blogging manx.
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Saturday, September 4, 2004 06:17 p.m.
Listening to : A Cinderella Story OST
I'm so addicted to "A Cinderella Story"~~~Went today to Jurong Point to watch "A Cinderella Story" with Weiqi. Haven't watched movies for a long time. I really loved Hilary Duff's movie nya~~ xDxD Well, this time the show is not bad. Quite touching that I almost cried at a few scenes. But, still I didn't cry out. xDxD Sometimes, I think that maybe I should wake myself up ? Hm....life is out there, but I'm still here cooping in my own room. I think I need a life. *sigh*
Newayx, I encourage you people to go watch "A Cinderella Story". Its a great show. Better catch it b4 its gone. ^^
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Friday, September 3, 2004 09:33 a.m.
Feeling : Tired
Grr....early morning, my nice morning has been trashed badly....partly because of me ?? or my maid ?? Hm...I woke up late today at around 8.30a.m. and rushed to the toilet but to find the toilet has been booked by my maid. I was damn freaking pissed off course I wanted to use the toilet!!Grrr........Blardy hell!!
Newayx, I wanted to go watch The Cinderella Story nya~~~I won't be going for Comic Jam this sat coz of my results. xDxD Well, its not really because of my father, but its that I think that if I go out too often, my father would then say that I'm taking my freedom for granted. Hm....I'm really to those ppl saying that I'm going nya. This is a very last minute decision that I made yesterday... *sigh* Nvm, I shall wait for next year. In the mean time, I got more time to do my stuff nya~~~ Wonder can do cosplay stuff at home or not. xDxD Haven't started on my group's cosplay props nya!!! *sob*
My friend just said something real nice~~THAT I DIDN'T PARTICIPATE IN IT. I DIDN"T HAVE ANY SAY IN IT. THEY DIDN'T ASK ME FOR MY OPINIONS.....I'M SO ANGRY!!!!GRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!SOMEONE PLS SMACK ME!!!
Grrr.....I need more time....I'm really tired........
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Thursday, September 2, 2004 04:38 p.m.
Listening to : Elva Hsiao~ Xing Fu De Di Tu
Grrr....gotta do update to my com. Well, lately many stuff had kinda happen around me especially and I'm not very aware of it. Now then I realised it. I'm always a fool. Haha~~ Thats very funny , I think. Sometimes, I'm very selfish. Well, thats my own perception of myself. I'm not sure why I judged myself this way, but maybe because such stuff had happen and I tend to become more depressed ? Well, I dun really feel depressed, but then there this something there which I dun know how to describe. Geez...am I tootsy ?? xDxD Newayx, to this friend of mine in class~~ Cheer up kae ?? Dun let anything get ya down!!!
Lazy to blog nya~~ xDxD Still got a few mins b4 I leave the house for my Jap Class. Decided to take JLPT 4. *sigh* Dun know can pass or not nya....
Lately, had been on a craze watching Taiwan shows especially La Senorita(Qian Jin Bai Fen Bai). I liked that show very much~ xDxD Stayed up late last night juz to watch it with my brother. We're mad ppl xDxD Newayx, I better stop here. xDxD Haven't changed yet...I need my SLEEP!!!!
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Wednesday, September 1, 2004 01:02 p.m.
Feeling : Tired
Now in CSA class, updating my blog. *sigh* Haven't been. Haha, another group work again. Juz received from the teacher. Shoot~~~WHY SO MANY!!!WTH!!! xDxD. newayx, met Yan Ting just now nya. xDxD So long nvr see her, she really changed alot nya
Newayx, I think I'll blog abit later bah ^^""
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Monday, August 16, 2004 02:56 p.m.
Feeling : Tired
Yesterday, had a super fun time at Rinka's place. xDxD Got to know many ppl there nya. Well, gonna type this long long nya. Haha.
Yesterday, planned to meet Pudding and Kiru at 2, but then I was late and so was Kiru. Then I met them at Dover MRT station around 2.35 i think. Then took a train down to Orchard and took a bus to Rinka's house. When we reach the place, we actually asked the security guard where is lobby 03-04. Then the security guard told us and then he said this : "Are you going to 15-03 ?" Pudding was quite stunned!! xDxD The security guard actually knows where we're heading to manx!! Then we asked him how he'd know. He told us saying that a bunch of people had also asked him. xDxD Thats so funny manx!!~~
When we reached Rinka's house, there were the ppl frm KHK there nya~~ xDxD Then after that went into Rinka's room to see Hamkaru back frm America~~Woohooo!!! *Hamkaru!!!!* xDxD Then we viewed the pics that Karugi brought back frm Otakon04. Manx~~ IT ROX~~ xDxD Then after, we out to take some drinks. Karugi made this drink, kinda nice. xDxD I'm like addicted to it manx. Luckily, I'm 18, so can drink nya~~ xDxD No lahx, thot it was real bitter, but hey, its not lohx~~ xDxD Wah manx, I feel so tootsy~~ xDxD
Then ard 5 plus, Yuanie, Kaika, Maria and Peggy came~~ Wheee~~Then Kiru, Pudd, Karugi and me,the four of us sat at the staircase, talking non-stop nya~~ So fun to chat with them ^^ Then after the food came, which Raywing ordered frm PizzaHut and KFC, we started the cake ceremony ard 7 plus. Then after singing session. During the singing session, I learn one new dance frm Karugi!!! xDxD That is the "CHEESE DANCE"!!! xDxD I am the CHEDDAR MANX!!! WOOHOOO~~ That is really madness manx. Think I'm a little drunk bah~~ xDxD Then me and Karugi were like CHEESE DANCE~~~ then madness came. Most ppl dance with us too. Karugi told us that this dance came frm Otakon04 where this person is cosplaying a cheese and was dancing with 2 glow sticks on each of her hand. xDxD
Laugh non-stop until my throat becomes really sore manx. Then sang with Peggy nya~~~Whee~~I really wanna join Kouhaku manx~~ Think I can make it nya ^^"" Then b4 we left around like 9 plus, me and Peggy sang Moment for the 2nd time manx~~Woohooo~~Its nice manx!!!I love it~~~xDxD
Newayx, hope there is more singing session and more CHEESE DANCE!~!! xDxD Can't stop the CHEESE DANCE MANX!!!!!!!!
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Wednesday, August 4, 2004 01:33 p.m.
Feeling : Angry
Feeling damn angry and pissed off now. Feel like crying. Manx, what the hell am I doing. Grr.... Yeseterday almost cried when I was talking to Alex abt yesterday's tennis incident. well, didn't talk to that fucking bastard at all. Told him abt it. Luckily, he's concerned abt me. Now having CSA in class. This girl beside me really pisses me off. Grrr... Okie, she's my classmate, but I really hate her AP. Her AP really sux.... She just asked me a qn and I can only say I dunno, coz I don;t understand.....Grr....ask her qn like will die one lohx. Grr.....gonna depend on myself manx....Maybe convert to what I was in Secondary school ? Well, that leaves up to me...
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Sunday, July 25, 2004 11:28 p.m.
Listening to : Kokoro by Joanne Hogg
Feeling : Emotional
Well, feeling a little emotional after he send me this song from Xenosaga. Dunno is there any meaning in it. But its best for me not to anyhow think too much. Here goes the lyrics....
I've been watching you awhile
Since you walked into my life
Monday morning, when first I heard you speak to me
I was too shy to let you know
Much too scared to let my feelings show
But you shielded me and that was the beginning
Now at last we can talk
In another way
And though I try, I love you,
Is just so hard to say
If I only could be strong
And say the words I feel
My bleeding heart begins to race
When I turn to see your face
I remember that sweet dream
Which you told to me
I wanted just to be with you
So we could make the dream come true
And you smiled at me and that was the beginning
Now at last we can talk
In another way
And though I try, I love you,
Is just so hard to say
If I only could be strong
And say the words I feel
Tell me what you're thinking of
Tell me if you love me not
I have so much I long to ask you
But now the chance has gone
When your picture fades each day
In my heart the memory stays
Though we rant, you're always smiling
And I will hold it long
I really liked him alot. Hope that this comes true for me.....
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Sunday, July 25, 2004 10:02 p.m.
Listening to : GO!!! by FLOW
Feeling : ANGRY!! PISSED OFF!!
Sometimes, I feel like I'm being treated like a kid. Not an ordinary kid, but like a 3 yr old kid!! I'm really really sick of this life. Its like my parents who love to control me alot. I'm damn pissed of with my mum now coz she says that I spended alot of money within this 3 months. Hey, that money was my hard earned money. I think I have the right to touch it manx! WHAT'S THIS MANX!! I find no wrong in using my own money. What's more, I get to do with my own money. Its not you using it. I'm really angry at her. I cant even buy what I want manx. Isn't this like me being treated like a 3 yr old kid ? I really feel that I really need independence manx. My bank book just got confiscated by her. Damn it! Now, she's gonna report this to my father. DAMN HER!! I dunno why must she do this to me. I'm her own daugther lohx!! I really wanna cry. I need my own freedo. Think I might do freelancing for the time being w/o my parents knowing bah. I need my own space. I got stuff that I want to buy that I dun need my parents permission. I'm no longer a kid. I'm a poly student who's already 18!! I really felt so angry.....Why can't a 18 yr old me do anything.... I feel so helpless.....Gonna try freelancing online, if not tution ppl for the time being and get myself stressed out ? Not sure. Most of my friends are working. Well, might work bah...I'm really depressed at this matter......
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Monday, July 19, 2004 11:39 a.m.
Listening to : Honey
Feeling : Mad about him~~ *butterflys flutter
Waiiii~~~ I'm so in love with him. Okie, this is not official, but its only a super huge crush on him. Well, TKB and eryc knows about it~~ Waiiii~~~Hope that they keep it down nya!! *blushes* Manx, I cant help thinking about him nya. Also, yesterday, I helped him nya~~ WAIIII *blushes* He's really a great guy in anyway. Well, still not really close to him.
Hm...dunno how to say this...not many ppl know that I like him even the person who likes him too also dunno I like him. I'm in such in a dilemma. I dunno how to tell her that I also like him. what we are having are actually crushes on him. But I really do hope that my crush would come true and become a reality. I'm really so mad about him. He's really a kind guy~~ Took his photo on sat secretly, for me to keep it as a secret. *blushes* I know this is very wrong, coz I took his pic w/o him knowing. I'm really sorry if you ever see this, but I don't think you would bah ^^""
I kinda miss him when I'm in school nya. ^^"" This is also what she ( the person who likes the same person as me) always say to me. I felt really bad. Its like I'm cheating on her coz she always let me know that she likes him, but I don't dare to tell her coz as ever, I'm a scaredy cat......no one knows about it. If u see me as a strong person, then ya very wrong. Ya have a wrong perception of me. I'm always a scaredy cat in relationships and love thingys.
Many a times, I had hinted to him alot, but dunno he knows about it or not. *sigh* He also told me this when I was joking about me hating him. This is what he said, He said he wasn't mature enuff for a relationship. well, this type of thing, I don't mind at all. Well, loving a person can mean waiting that person forever. *sigh* Why am I talking so much crap here ?? Manx, muz be too into "him" liaoz.
Muz find a chance to talk to her about him. But I think she will be quite shocked at it....... *sigh* I think its best for me to tell her as early as I can bah......
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Saturday, July 17, 2004 08:16 a.m.
YOU ARE..... : Kira Yamato ! Let's say that you're
shy, clumsy but hey what knows, you're actually
intelligent and superbly kind !!
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I cant sleep anymore.....I'm tired....I just had only 5 hours of sleep and TADA~~ I'm here typing lotsa nonsense. Thot I would miss him, by its true that I really kinda miss him now when I don't see him online nya~~xDxD
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~
Friday, July 16, 2004 07:28 p.m.
Feeling : Tired
Think I'm gonna miss him manx. Well, don't even know whether he likes me ? *sigh* Why am I thinking so much ? *sigh* Won't be seeing him online until 23rd July. Think I'm really into it manx. I think he's the first guy that I ever paid attention to so much in my life. In my other relationship, I didn't think that much, but this time, I gave lots of thought about it. I don't even know what I'm thinking of now. I feel really happy when I'm with him. Not that excitied or anxious at all. I feel best when I'm with him, so I can crack lame jokes as usual. Think I really gonna miss him. *sigh*
Got my new assignment. Gonna do it tomorrow at Weiqi's hse. Gonna need her help manx. Fixed up my website asap bah. *sigh*
Today is really fun~~ Helped them but still... *sigh* I feel kinda sad, but I don't know why. Some of you might know bah....especially Weiqi. I told her before nya. *sigh* Sometimes, I think I made a matchmaker better than a lover. Thats what I think of myself coz I crack lame jokes.... Well, not gonna dwell on this. Need to regain my confidence back asap and must be genki again!! Really hope what my dream really come true manx....
Nanjaro Hoi Hoi~~